Refuse or give in?

"A moment of silence and truth is more than we can ever get sometimes. Be happy over what you get, even the simplest things. Because, you have something someone else whats."

So, hello, people, I'm back! And this is for all of you who write and have gotten rejected more than once on the book you have been writing and want published.
   During my little vacation on almost-three-weeks I got an answer from the publishers I was waiting an answer from. They said "Thanks, but no, thanks", sort of. I started to get tired of all this rejections. I mean, they have kind of said that I am a good enough author, but that they don't think my book could be published with success -- for them, of course. It would be enough for me just if they published it. Anyway, they didn't want to publish my story this time either. At first I was really mad frustrated and didn't really talk to anyone and just wrote on my other stories because I didn't feel for writing the last book in my trilogy. Then I realized that the problem was that Sweden doesn't really like the new aspect of fantasy I can have in my stories, with my own creatures and beliefs etc. It kind of reminds me of J.K. Rowling when you think about.
   So, I decided to start a new book, an even more risky book, it turned out. I don't really know. I criticize a lot of stuff in society and a lot of people wouldn't be proud of me, the truth is a lot of people would hate me for this book. But, I really want to write this one if I can't publish the story I love. And, I mean, if I get published with this one it would be a lot d*mn easier to publish The Eternal Battle. That was one of the reasons I decided to give up instead of refuse and try again and again. I mean, I'm up in 6 rejections, and I know it isn't that much. But, at the same time, when I started my new book I realized I would be really proud if it got published, more proud than I could ever be with TEB.

What I want to say is that when you give in and let the publishers influence you it isn't always a bad thing. I mean, publishers here in Sweden answers with two sentences. A "thank you for letting us read your manuscript" and then a "But, unfortunately we have decided to thank no" and then they just sign the letter or mail with their name, and that's it. Okay? It isn't much. People can understand them, we can, but it doesn't really feel like anything when you have been writing for a really long while and your stomach almost have struck knots on itself when you send the book to the publishers. It's a really god da** hard work just to send it to them. Give your whole future in the hand of others'. 

   Are you working on something you really want to get published? A text you have been changing all the time just to make it as good as possible? And it still doesn't work? Don't be afraid of changing it. I know I can sound like a hypocrite, especially since i didn't want to change it for a really long while, I mean, I'm at the third book in the trilogy. I am as stubborn as a donkey, to be honest. But even I give in sometimes.

   Changes are good in life. When I started to write it was probably the best decision I have ever made together with signing up on tumblr. And, maybe a change in the story decision is all that's needed to get published? That's at least what I hope for... 

  And, believe me when I say that even if I get hate for the story I'm writing, I am not going to stop, so, if or when I start to write about it here I would recommend you to not give a sh** about what I want to do with my life, even if it is a "sin" or something like that. Because, something made out of pure love could never be a sin.
   So, dear reader, if it feels like something is stopping you, maybe it is you self. I hope I can look back at this and say that I was right, that the only thing that was stopping me from getting published was my own stubbornness.
   I wish you all luck in life!

-- Selma.