-- Elkastor, The Eternal Battle, chapter XVIII
Days like this I just want to write and write and write, and read more than I have time with. It's kind of sad how much our lives depend on how much time we have left -- 'till the day ends, to our lives end, to the world's end. Because, that's the truth, isn't? Everything has an end, even when we wish the time to stop, right in the moment so we can use the time as we wish. "Live in the moment", "Live your life", "Don't make your job to your life", "Use the time the way you will remember it, not the way you must"... There's a lot of things people tell us, the society tells us. But it's not easy to actually have the time you have -- that may or may not make any sense for you, but for other it maybe will. The thing I mean is that the whole day just passed by, and I almost did nothing. It's not something I regret, but as long as the wish for have done something more is there I don't really feel like I spend my time the way I could have done. I watched a lot of series today, and that's kind of what I did, and I still don't regret it. I also wrote a page or two on my book and I'm in the right direction now, so that's another thing I don't regret. The thing I probably regret is my way of spending way too much time on the internet -- especially on tumblr (once you have logged in, there's no way out, I'm not kidding, by the way). And, now, I'm spending more time on stuff I wasn't planned on doing. But I got this feeling that I should write something here, probably because I'm flying to another country soon (in ten days) and I won't be able to write something during that time, because of that I won't have any access to the Internet.
Anyway, back to the subject, if there's any, I mostly babble right now.
It's okay to just doing nothing a whole day, whatever you count as "nothing". If this "nothing" makes you happy and feel comfortable with your life, your situation and just... comfortable, you maybe should consider to make it more often. Just spent the whole day in bed and slept? Sure, do it again a day that won't hurt anyone or you, like a Saturday -- if you don't work during Saturdays... You know what I mean, a day that fits your life. Do you want to have a cup of tea and read a really good book? Go for it, if you feel for it and it fits your life. Do whatever you like to, as long as it's legal I don't think someone can stop you.
But, if you are like George R.R. Martin and like to kill your characters, that's another thing. Killing characters is fun sometimes -- not always, though.
I know this was mostly babble and stuff but I hope some of you people who are on my blog right now will return! I makes me happy to see that people all over the world have found my blog, but I have absolutely no idea about who returns and who just sees this and roll with their eyes or something and never think about this place again... I would really like to know if someone actually likes this or not.
P.S. Next time I write something here I hopefully will write something about the writing. (Or anything else I maybe can write about? Do you wish for something special? You can find my e-mail under "About me", just send something, if you really want to, or comment ☺ ).
-- Selma.
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